I try to numb myself

drowning in sorrow,

the pain of yesterday

& fear of tomorrow.

Raped, battered

left for dead,

your voice still echoing

in my head.

Frustration & confussion,

I just want to die,

but I'm so overwhelmed

all I can do is cry.

Ripped, torn,

my pounding heart.

Drowning in sorrow,

torn apart.

Trying to catch myself

as I fall

deeper in to this void,

please hear my call.

These feelings consume me,

reality is so unreal,

drinking to oblivion

so I can't feel.

I close my eyes

& hope that I don't wake up,

living this nightmare,

life is so fucked up.

I open my eyes,

but I still can't see,

living in a bottle

will be the death of me.

The anger in your voice,

my heart just died,

I dreamt the world ended,

mass suicide,

then I woke up &

all I could do was cry.